My Nerdy Life

Post Concussion Syndrome

It’s time for me to get a little personal with y’all.

About a year and a half ago while travelling between the US and UK I suffered a traumatic brain injury. It took a few days for me to fully understand the extent of the injury because I chalked up a lot of the weird things I was saying/doing to jet lag. I definitely had a headache, but when I called my GP upon landing in the UK he just told me to take paracetamol.

A couple of days later, after wandering around the house in a daze for hours, I tried to make a cup of tea and ended up putting it directly into a cupboard. I was unable to form coherent sentences when my husband asked me what I was doing so he rushed me to the A&E. Even though I was barely functioning, I brought a book with me out of habit but kept reading the same sentence over and over unable to understand what I was reading.

I was eventually diagnosed with Post Concussion Syndrome and was told that there was no timeline on the prognosis. I may have symptoms for weeks, months, years, or forever. When I spoke to the doctor about how hard everything was seeming, she told me, “It’s going to feel like you’re trying stream videos using a computer from the 80s.” It was a pretty great analogy because it felt like everything I was doing was constantly buffering.

One of the hardest parts of PCS was I couldn’t read. I could still recognise the words, but none of them made sense and it would take hours for me to get through a chapter if I could get through it at all. During my three decades on this planet, books have been one of the most important parts of my life. To not be able to do the one thing that has always gotten me through good times and bad was devastating.

It took six months for any sign of improvement, but my short term memory was shot and I lost the ability to multi-task, symptoms I still struggle with. And good god the headaches.

Reading has become easier, but I found I had to take A LOT of notes to help me along. Luckily for me, reading and note taking was my jam in university. It’s useful with reviewing books, too!

So why am I telling you all of this?

A couple of things happened recently that really shook me. While I’m better than I was, I did suffer a serious injury that still affects me and may do so indefinitely. One of the most difficult things about silent illnesses is it’s hard for other people to take it seriously or understand how bad it is. With head injuries, sometimes YOU don’t even realize it. The brain is tricky like that.

Going over some of my previous posts, I saw some typos and a few other mistakes. Typos are normal, but it still made me feel really crappy. I proofread my posts but these still slipped through the cracks.

I was beating myself up a lot about this, but cheered up when I saw an audiobook I requested was available at the library. I listened to a couple hours of it before I decided to update my progress on Goodreads. That’s when I saw I had already read this book- the exact same library audiobook no less. I couldn’t remember it at all. I thought surely it must have been a mistake till I saw the date I had read it: it was about two weeks after the head injury.

I listened to the audiobook right to the end and it only vaguely seemed familiar. I fully understand why I don’t remember it, but it doesn’t make the whole thing any less scary.

So, seriously, why am I telling you all of this?

Basically what I wanted to tell you, Readers, is that I apologize for any mistakes I’ve missed or may miss.  Even though this blog is a lot of work, I get so much joy and fulfillment out of it. Plus I’m sure it has the added benefit of helping my recovery. To have you all reading, commenting, and following means the world to me. For that I thank you from the bottom of my nerdy heart. ❤ Also can we give a shoutout to my incredibly supportive husband David, who not only has helped me through all this but has started proofreading my posts, too?

Hopefully I’ll recover more from PCS as time goes on, but until then bear with me: because no amount of head knocking is going to keep me away from books.

17 thoughts on “Post Concussion Syndrome”

  1. Oh my that must have been a truly scary time for you. Its great you’ve written about it though. I suffer from cluster migraines (which is a far cry from what you’ve been through) but I do find my speech and thinking impaired during it. I’m glad you’re on the mend though ❤️

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    1. Oh no, I don’t get those type of migraines often but when I do it’s one of the worst states I’ve ever been in. I’m really sorry you suffer from them! If you ever need to vent, let me know. Sounds like we’ve both got brains that like to mess with us. ❤


  2. Aye. This is an ordeal! Take care of yourself. You really shouldn’t feel the need to apologize for anything. People might think this is a sports limited thing but it definitely is not. You ability to withstand it and keep going with what you love is a testament to your spirit.

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    1. Yeah, I don’t think a lot of people take it seriously with me because I didn’t get rammed into whilst playing tackle football. Also I think it’s natural for people to react that way, my friends with things like chronic pain get similar treatment from others.

      Thanks so much for your kind words!! ❤

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  3. Thank you for sharing this piece of your life with us. I’m sorry you’re dealing with PCS and hope you continue to improve.

    Kudos to David for proofreading your posts!

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  4. I’m sorry for what you’re going through- I can only imagine. But don’t beat yourself up over typos! I make typos all the time despite proofreading more times than I’d like to admit. It happens! Wishing you a speedy and safe recovery.

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  5. Oh my gosh! That must have been incredibly scary and frustrating! I’m glad you’re okay! ❤ Wishing you all the best while you continue to recover. And like everyone else has said, totally don't beat yourself up over typos! We all make them 🙂

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